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One afternoon my daughter was running out of diapers so I called my abuser. It had been days since he had stopped by but maybe he’d bring his daughter some diapers? Boldly, I took a chance at calling him knowing full well his way of handling his daughters’ health situation was to drink and ignore us.
I can still feel the sting as I relive the obscenity-filled NO that came across through my cell phone. No, I am not driving over there (5 miles away) with diapers. His tone was so degrading. He ended with a stern “figure this out yourself” as he hung up the phone.
Imagine my embarrassment as I had to ask one of my daughter’s nurses working 12-hour shifts to please pick up diapers for me prior to coming back for tomorrow’s shift.
Faith and Domestic Violence - Asking for HelpDo It Yourself
Years and years of my abuser telling me no; do it yourself; I am not going to help you; stop bothering me; and it’s all your fault so clean up your mess yourself left me convinced I needed to do everything on my own.
Asking for help will always be hard for me, yet...
I am now twelve years removed from my abuser and asking for help still lingers as a challenge for me.
Here is what I have learned:
Please comment below any lies you are struggling with, Blessings to all, Sue
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9/26/2019 10:01:49 pm
I am struggling w trying to keep myself moving forward. I have been on foot for months. Today learned my ex steamrolled both of us into his credit cards bankruptcy...i always paid my bills. I knew I was getting out in 2015 but had not secured everything I needed. So I asked the lawyer if he could separate my stuff from my ex..he had said yes but meant no of course. So getting a decent loan for a car is tough. I work part time live alone w my emotional support dogs. Go every where I can on foot w my cart for food, or to do my laundry.. My divorce is stalling because my ex is aprocrastinator like most narcissists. The shelter I am trying to get a few things from is struggling and now closing their main office at the end of August.. I was in my abusive marriage 33 years 1 year we lived together.
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Sue
9/27/2019 07:57:05 pm
Lynn, I am sorry you are struggling so much right now. I know how hard it is to feel God’s support w so many stressors. I pray that some way, some how, God’s calmness finds you and lessens the burdens of your day, Sue
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Hi, I'm SueWelcome to my blog! I served twenty-one honorable years on active duty, living a double life of capability and accomplishment in the service while enduring brutality and abusiveness in my twenty-one year oppressive marriage. Today I'm happily married and have three children who are my inspiration and motivation.
My goal is to help combat the lies of abusers with the truth of God. I hope you find my words to be healing and helpful through your own life experiences. Sue's StoryBeing separated from my abusive husband didn't make me a domestic violence survivor. It surely didn't release me from the grip of his brainwashing control and the innate power he had on me.
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