Leaning on God

When I am feeling good with minimum anxiety and stress, I know God is in control. Even when my life turns upside down, I know God is in control; yet during stressful times holding onto this thought is extremely challenging for me. Stressful times bring forward a weakness in me that I am ashamed of. 

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Anxiety and Recovery from Domestic Violence - Leaning on God

Here’s my journal entry from last Sunday:
 
I know God is in control. I trust God has had a hand in my family’s world over the past 36 hours.
 
The problem is, the events over the past 36 hours have broken down my boundaries of protections. I don’t know how close I am to going into a PTSD numbness cycle, but I feel millimeters away. Fighting falling into that dark pit, I boldly pray:
 
            “God, you know why this situation is going on. You know how to get us through it. I am leaning into You for calmness.”
 
Just writing these words brought me a sparkle of “it’s going to be okay” in my heart. As I navigate through the next 24 hours, I will hold on tightly to this spark of hope.
           

• I hope I calm my thoughts down enough so I can hear God’s guidance
• I hope I continue to turn to Him versus taking the situation into my own hands
• I hope spiritual warfare is minimized and defeated sooner than later
• I hope my turning to God constantly keeps Him close

 
We are all going through uncharted stress and uncertainty right now. As I sat in my quiet devotion place I knew my journal entry was to be shared; shared with a reader who knows they need it; shared with a reader who finds hope in knowing they are not alone.
 
Regardless of our situations, one thing is for sure. If we turn to God, He will meet us right where we are with open and loving arms.
 
I pray for peace and calmness for all my readers,
 
Sue

Feeling God's Presence

My journey from domestic violence victim to survivor is in its twelfth year. I’ve made huge strides in my recovery over the past five years (aka nervous breakdown year), yet the anxiety within my head has never completely calmed down. But this past weekend, for one of the few times in my life, I felt totally connected to my world for a beautiful five minutes.

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