When I am feeling good with minimum anxiety and stress, I know God is in control. Even when my life turns upside down, I know God is in control; yet during stressful times holding onto this thought is extremely challenging for me. Stressful times bring forward a weakness in me that I am ashamed of.
Anxiety and Recovery from Domestic Violence - Leaning on God
Here’s my journal entry from last Sunday:
I know God is in control. I trust God has had a hand in my family’s world over the past 36 hours.
The problem is, the events over the past 36 hours have broken down my boundaries of protections. I don’t know how close I am to going into a PTSD numbness cycle, but I feel millimeters away. Fighting falling into that dark pit, I boldly pray:
“God, you know why this situation is going on. You know how to get us through it. I am leaning into You for calmness.”
Just writing these words brought me a sparkle of “it’s going to be okay” in my heart. As I navigate through the next 24 hours, I will hold on tightly to this spark of hope.
We are all going through uncharted stress and uncertainty right now. As I sat in my quiet devotion place I knew my journal entry was to be shared; shared with a reader who knows they need it; shared with a reader who finds hope in knowing they are not alone.
Regardless of our situations, one thing is for sure. If we turn to God, He will meet us right where we are with open and loving arms.
I pray for peace and calmness for all my readers,
Hi, I'm Sue
Welcome to my blog! I served twenty-one honorable years on active duty, living a double life of capability and accomplishment in the service while enduring brutality and abusiveness in my twenty-one year oppressive marriage. Today I'm happily married and have three children who are my inspiration and motivation.
My goal is to help combat the lies of abusers with the truth of God. I hope you find my words to be healing and helpful through your own life experiences.
Being separated from my abusive husband didn't make me a domestic violence survivor. It surely didn't release me from the grip of his brainwashing control and the innate power he had on me.
Read the full raw story in my new book, Rock Bottom and Faithless.